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Natalie: I see that and must say I like you more and more

Amir: thanks my love, you are the precious ever thing for me that i never wana loose, i would rather prefer to lose my life before losing you

Natalie: oh, Amir, don?t be in hurry again.

Amir: :( can you be romantic for some time?

Natalie: I am romantic, but not on i-net! :) I just keep myself; when we meet in reality then you will see if I am romantic or not! then you will ask maybe: don?t be SO romantic, plz!

Amir: really… i am waiting for that moment

Natalie: have I told you I write books? novels? so how can I be not romantic!? :)

Amir: really? That’s nice, i wana read them

Natalie: yes, it is one of my most favorite activities, they are in Russian…

Amir: impressed!.

. What was the name of your husband and where he was from?

Natalie: he was from Pakistan, but we met in Kiev, his name was Ajaz

Amir: why did he leave you?

Natalie: he didn?t want to leave me… may I not tell you now? Later, when we meet and if you still want to know

Amir: honey i want to know

Natalie: but didn?t you tell me just some days ago you don?t want to know anything about my past?

Amir: yes, i just don’t wana do same and loose you

Natalie: he was so nice to me and we loved each other.

I was very happy with him, it was the happiest time in my life… but in general it was rather hard time, when Soviet Union collapsed

Amir: yea, i know, so are you originally RUSSIAN?

Natalie: he wanted us to move to Germany… yes, I am half Russian and half Ukraine from my Mother side

Amir: ok then?

Natalie: he wanted us to come to Germany and I didn?t want go here at first… it took a lot of time to make my documents, we even couldn?t wait and he bought passport with visa for me, but then Germany was closed for Pakistani ppl… so we moved to my parents… and I wanted a baby then, same like now… he told me it was not right time, but I insisted… there was no work for us in Estonia and other problems with visa for him… my parents wanted us to go to Pakistan, they thought we would be fine there… so they made him leave but he didn?t want to leave me… cried and told he couldn?t live without me.

. but I was SO sure in him and in his love. I forced him to go and he promised to come back after three months and take me with a baby… but never came back.