Ловушка для Мыслеформы. A Trap for a Thought-Form. Премия им. М. Булгакова / M. Bulgakov Award (Билингва: Rus/Eng)

The first person that will come to your mind is most likely your mother…

Go over your personal history for each person with whom you have come in contact in life, from your acquaintance to its completion or to the present moment, if you are still in contact, try to remember everything…

Ask to forgive you for what:

* you remember, and you feel uneasy at heart,

* you don’t remember, or maybe you don’t even know, but a person might have been inadvertently offended by you…

You must mentally relive your life anew, with each of those who were sent to you from Above.

Ask everyone to forgive you preferably verbally, by calling or meeting, if these people are alive… or mentally… You can write a letter in your magic notebook as well.

At the end of the work, you will face the most difficult thing – to forgive each of them. To forgive and let go forever without any emotions, except gratitude, so that later, remembering the person, nothing would shudder in your soul or would respond with pain.

Otherwise, you won’t be able to become what you really are, the Magician.

***

Having returned home, I lit the candles and began to scroll through my life, checking myself for the task I had given to Roman that evening, whether anyone could make me feel uneasy on the edge of leaving.

«How u, my girl?» a message appeared on the phone.

«Thank you, I am okay.»

«I come 2 u. Want?»

«Right now?!»

«Want 2 see u. U? Yes or not? Tell true. I come. No know when but not problem 2 come. When can fly, I come. I see Internet – fly cancelled. Borders closed. All closed. I come & go coffee with u! Tell u want 2. Yes?»

4. Чёртова мельница

– Очередная колдунья пожалует к нам с «Чёртовой мельницей»? – раздался знакомый голос за спиной.

– Не угадал, – я обернулась и улыбнулась Стражу.

– Сразу несколько? И прямо с болот?.. Кофе?

– Ну, не несколько, один, зато самый главный – их Хозяин, но – да, с болота, и да, двойной эспрессо с молоком, – я присела за столик в кофейной части зала. – Болото настоящее, можешь не сомневаться. Мне перепала целая корзинка с клюквой. Автор несёт на себе зловещую печать Сатурна в XII, но, даже если ты не в курсе трактовок, не заморачивайся.